love & marriage

two months ago yesterday, christian asked me to marry him :)
i have never been so sure about something in my life than this.
in three months i'm marrying my best friend.

i dont ever think i've shared my proposal story, but christian
and i always have gone up to "our spot" through our four years with
each other. i wasnt really expecting it, we were talking about ghost stories
and non romantic things before..hahaha
so i was like, "you're not going to scare me are you?"
and he just laughed and said, "no" haha so i figured just talking like we always do,
you see he took me up to this place when he was going through the hardest time
in his life with his parents and just an awful awful time. but we've also shared a lot
of different things at "our spot" crying, deep deep convorsations, laughing so hard, so many
memories.. it was the perfect place,
because of all the awesome raw emotions we have shared there.

i'm in no way the type of girl who expects roses and the romantic dinner
and blah blah blah. i'm just not that girl.
but honestly no matter how christian proposed to me, did not matter for one second.
because whatever he did, was going to perfect in my eyes no matter what.

we were standing on the snow bank, freezing cold.
he tucked me inside his jacket and we just stood there holding each other
looking up at the full moon barely poke over mountain side, reflecting in the water.
i kind of new it then, when he looked at me with a quirky smile.
i dont think i've ever smiled so big in my life.
he pulled it out of his jacket pocket got on one knee and said,
"call i love you, will you marry me?"
of course i kind of teared up. and bit my lip,
"yes"

haha then we laughed so hard when a bunch of little kids
pulled up to go sledding. hahah we hurried and got in his truck
and turned on the heater, i couldnt stop looking at my ring.
haha we were laughing and i couldnt stop saying, "we're engaged, oh my gosh!!"
he stopped laughing and i knew he was serious then. he looked at me and said,
" call i just want you to know i love you, and that i just wanted to do this more
of an us kinda way, something more meaningful to the both of us."
i looked at him and said, "this was perfect"

i love him

xoxo - call