friend for hire

"Never leave a friend behind. Friends are all we have to get us through this

 life—and they are the only things from this world that we could hope to see in the next."

— Dean Koontz

i don't think a lot of people know how important friends are.

i have great friends in my life, but they have just moved on to new ventures and new places.

(moving away, starting new relationships, so on) 

and i never get to see any of the people i hold a great love for anymore. and i understand

completely, because everyone is busy, and has their own goals and work and life just gets crazy

sometimes; I UNDERSTAND! 

i feel like i have a greater love for other people in my life and 

sometimes i feel like it is not reciprocated, not all the time but most.

i just have a really big heart and want to love everyone with it all the time.

But right now i'm feeling a bit like i have 0 friends in my life. (pity party)

and i know that is not true at all.. but sometimes i just wish i knew

why i don't fit in with any of christian's friends wives.. they are all friends

but i'm like the lone wolf over here like, "heeey". 

and in all reality i love everyone, and want to be every ones friend.

i am goofy and weird and want someone to be weird and goofy 

with me and come over to have girls nights and do DIY projects for

our apartments and do fun adventurous things together.. 

and i used to have really great best friend that i did all those things with,

and yes i miss that sometimes.. but friendships do fall out here and there, some that spiral all the

way to hell. and maybe you know who i'm talking about and maybe you don't, 

and maybe you even think you know why we are not friends from the other party..

but i'm one hundred percent sure that its not the actual truth. because seldom know

why we are not friends because i am still being a good friend to her whether she believes

it or not keeping her demons to myself and not telling anyone really why we are not

friends anymore.. and even though it angers me i have sucked up my pride and forgiven 

her, even though she might not even admit to herself what she had done wrong. 

and trust me i'm not perfect and i regret a lot of things i did and said..

 and it has taken a lot to move forward and move on because our friendship was so amazing.

and i honestly wish nothing but the best for her and her family. 

i know that i have friends, but i just want one or two close friends that i can count on

to be my friend and to do everything with, 

yes i am married and my husband is my best friend and companion, but everyone needs

other friends in their lives to have and love. i mean if christian let me paint his nails and 

watch the notebook, or go to the fabric store and do diy projects together then i'd be all set.

It’s not how many friends you can count, it’s how many of those you can count on. 

– Anthony Liccione

anyway, i'm pathetic... and not actually hiring friends that was a joke. 

and if any of you don't know me don't take me too seriously.. i'm not being

overly dramatic i'm being very sarcastic!

but if you'd like to be friends, we don't even need to be great friends just 

a friend or someone to talk to when you need or if you're feeling lonely, 

lets go to lunch or do something  amazing sometime.. i'd really love that.

xo- Micall